Ok, still on a break from my complicated lives. I'm actually a bit complicated myself right now.
This hopefully won't be one of those depressive woe is me posts...but....
It's been a heck of a year.
I'm in a "really introspective phase" in normal human terms...that means "I'm in a bit of a depression".
Life is great...no worries! I'm simply finding it hard to engage in conversation. Focus on things for long. I'm needing sleep but not finding it. I may not be as chipper or communicative as I generally am. When I do emerge from my cave there are usually snide comments and acerbic wit. Ok, so I close off and act a bit surly.
A lot of things hit the fan all at once and I'm taking a step back to watch life until I get my bearings again. I had something fun planned in mid Dec, but I think I have to cancel my plans. Hmmm no, I'm not having "those thoughts" it's hard to be "with it" some days.
It's also hard to talk about, especially when I have no idea what I feel.
Rhapsody in Blue??
Perhaps I'll listen to a twisted Christmas song. I can't handle deep meaning now. Mary Did You Know will push me over the edge....but Dominic the Donkey can carry me back.
Living in a flash and a rainbow...I know the spark is out there