Thursday, July 19, 2012

First concert in a chair....

I went to see Alice Cooper and Iron Maiden, with my guys of course!  The venue was the same as the last time we saw Alice Cooper, last summer.  The difference this time was me.  I've gotten over some of my stubbornness and begun to realize, how I attend a concert is not nearly as important as the fun had while there.  I can say I had a truly awesome time!! I felt free.  It was so much fun to just relax and enjoy the show.  Chair dancing without fear of falling; making noise and enjoying the show; just 'being' and knowing I was safe.  Not having to worry about someone crashing into me and toppling me was a real load off my mind.  One would think that being safe and enjoying the moment would trump stubborness, or the feeling I had to walk in order to prove something no one (not even myself) understands.  One would thing living would outweigh fear....
Pretty simple right???.....wrong
This is as much a mental game as it is a physical one.  It's hard to describe the many emotions that surface in any given day.  It's especially hard trying to map out how I'll feel or function in a 'safe' situation (grocery shopping) if I'm tired, stressed or distracted.  When a totally unpredictable crowd enters the equation, all bets are off.  I'm slowly adapting to the "new normal".  In many ways it's much harder dealing with a chair.  At this point, I think it's well worth the hassles, if anyone stares I havent noticed.  Maybe I just don't care.
It took 2 concerts and several mishaps for me to understand the fairly basic concept that fun beats fear everytime.
I've spent most of two years clinging to my idiotic ways....I'm slowly waking from my slumber, (don't really get much of that)  and realizing that just because I can walk, doesnt always mean that it's the safest or best option.
Next concert is Morrissey (yes, again) and I will take Lilac.  Of course my chair has a name....if you know me, would you expect anything less?

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Alice Cooper is still alive?! WOW!
It's nice the old folks home allows him to go out on weekends to put on concerts.
And you saw Iron Maiden too, That's COOL! Uhhhh Who's Iron Maiden?
Yeah I like Heavy Metal too, for instance I listen to the really really heavy stuff like Poison and Winger those guys are tough. I love to head bang to their music on my stereo full blast. I got one of those fancy boom boxes you find at K Mart.

I am glad you had fun.

good to hear you had a fun time