oh well

Things are really screwy right now...it seems like nothing is working quite the way it's supposed to. I feel like a yo-yo...up and down. Nothing is really registering up stairs...things physically aren't responding well...I have a major case of the blahs. I think this may have something to do with the newly cut thumb...(it's in a splint and typing is hard)....it just brings it all back and reminds me that this is going to be a lengthy recovery.

My voice is back....at least to a stage whisper volume. I find that now I can talk, I really don't feel like interacting. How weird is that?

It would be really nice if collars came in different colors

Apparently I CAN shut up

Yesterday in a bizarre salad and beer accident...my voice went. Since noon yesterday, I have been mute. This is the oddest thing yet.

I blame the spasms and the roughly 5 forkfuls of salad I got down. Definitely NOT the beer!

My special 'Mommy Power' is gone!...I can't nag my husband!! Seriously they both at totally separate times yesterday told me to "nod"! WTH?? I still can't nod :-) So as you can see I still have much work to do in training them.

I am really thankful for color note on my phone. I am also thankful for friends you meet in stores with excellent senses of humor. I am thankful for pens...and for everyone understanding my hands still aren't responding quickly so communication takes forever...or at least feels like it.

So day 2 has begun in muteland...mutant muteland? oh well!

Oh yeah...I'm also going insane with the muscle relaxers. I'm not always aware of 'what' I am doing. The drugs are getting to me, but it isn't pretty when I don't take them...so for now...insane and mute. Let's just hope the agoraphobia doesn't come back this time.